Saturday, February 27, 2010
is a deadly cycle...getting angry and being pacified...haiz....
11:13 AM
Sunday, February 21, 2010
it has all become a routine tat i have gottan use to...i really wonder how i got use to it....
2:41 PM
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
weak weak weak...i am weak..
2:50 PM
Monday, February 15, 2010
wat did i do to deserve all this???i know i sld treat myself better but u...becos of u i cant treat myself better...i treat myself like shit....when u bu sheng bu xiang,bu wen bu wen de she huo i really feel so shit...y can other ppl be so open eventhough is nt real but u cant....lucky i have fren...at least i have my fren company today...if not i will be like a idiot staying at home hoping that u will call or msg me...my fren care abt me more than u...wat r u???at least they didnt step over the line....they are really call frens...u just come in to mess my life....tried very hard nt to think of u but when i am alone i still think...whereever i go i only hear sad songs....it make me feel worse...this is all shit not real de....i will wake up to reality one day....when my heart die and when my limit is reach....i will really wake up de....
11:13 PM
Saturday, February 13, 2010
wat a cny arh....everybody is not is the mood...my pt feeling down...wilson feeling down...i dont want them to feel sad and emo....i rather be the one....since my life is being mess up..y not just mess up more....let their troubles come to me....and just kill me....i dont want my pt to die...since im in a mess then mess me up more la...pt i know u reading this...anything tell me ok...dont keep inside...
11:05 PM
so near yet so far...so close yet i cant catch...it seem so real but it does not belong to me...will the dreams come true one day?????i feel it...did u feel it????
2:53 PM
Thursday, February 11, 2010
haven nth to say....but i will play by the rules....trying to make me jealous...nope i wont....my turn will come....just play by the rules...
8:25 PM
Monday, February 08, 2010
life is like choosing a choice...once u choose wrongly...everything will be wrong...but when u donnoe wat is wrong and wat is right...how r u going to choose...once u choose wrong...wat will u do???stick to it to correct it or just rub it away and choose a correct one????i donnoe wat am i suppose to do....to correct or to rub...maybe rub is faster ba....things are easy to be say than done....i choose to sink in eventhough i know wat will happen...but maybe one day i will wake up in this dream..this dream tat i created....once i wake up...then will be no turning back le...i promise....but just let me have this few little moments to remember before i wake up....
9:02 PM
Sunday, February 07, 2010
ytd have been mugging mugging and mugging on med micro....type until i donnoe wat am i typing le....and math test is irritating...donnoe wat is wat and hope tat immuno doesnt have much calculations but i think is immpossible la...ren ming ba....will try no matter wat...at least med micro lab test is done and over with....must study study study....so tat can stop me thinking from certain things...
Labels: wat is the pt of msg me when u r nt free to reply????
9:33 PM
one word
FAN FAN FAN
12:11 PM
Thursday, February 04, 2010
ur pt now also donnoe wat to say le...i donnoe whether i will regret anot...but if u ask me now....i might say now i wont...but even thou i want to xiang ka yi dian things will still come back when i am alone....i wont ask and dont dare to ask anything le cos i dont want the same thing to happen again....i will just let it remain like tat for as long as i can take it ba...and when the day i cant take it i think i will be free...but pt dont worry...i still know how to differentiate things...i denfinatly wont let this affect my study de....study is study...the only thing i can do now is wait ma...my only choice left...im too dependent le...it become a habit now...
4:46 PM
Monday, February 01, 2010
i know wat is right and wat is wrong but somehow i cant control it anymore...i know is wrong...wrong wrong wrong....but i cant help it and cant stop it....i cant say no...my heart will go soft when everything happen...every move and feel is so right but something is just wrong...i already tried to stop wat i can stop...but the rest i cant....i cant....i am weak...really weak...but somehow i wish this will go on...am i wrong....have i done something wrong...cos i feel so wrong....pt dont scold me....i just cant help it...,.,
9:55 PM
