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Tuesday, January 19, 2010

I am so tired....so so so tired...not becos of sch...somehow i do hope is becos of sch...i sldnt be thinking anymore...sldnt....it wont make a diff....but somehow deep inside my heart still hope tat it might change but i know it wont....so let me concentrate concentrate on sch....stupid calculations and stupid lec....work hard work hard work hard....i can do it....but work is kns sia...work like a collie....but nvm soon it will be finish and i will also have pb....which is happy and surprise....at least got more $$$$$$...haha....more shopping fee...haha...pt dont worry too much abt me...i am fine...just tat when i am alone..things start to come back...u better study hard arh....

9:01 PM

Saturday, January 16, 2010

i know i am silly but i rather it be tat way...i just cant do it...everything tat he had shown and given me even until now...i cant give up...is so close...so close tat i alway forgot our status...or i sld say we forgot...maybe i am selfish and greedy...pt i really cant be strong enough to stand up and say no...i cant reject him...i know i am silly,selfish and greedy...my heart is working harder than my brain...the brain is not going to correct my heart anymore...pt i missssssss u.....

12:23 AM

Saturday, January 09, 2010

hmmm...donnoe is i think too much or wat...ask me whether i going for the party anot...say see me later...then hover around but dont dare to come over at first..then finally come over but use a very lame que to start a topic....do u really want to talk to her or just want to come over and talk to me...eventhoug WHY is there u still came over...do u know she gave me a weird looking face....i tried not to see it but i in fact i saw it...i though we r suppose to keep a distance over there since u dont like to make them think wrongly...and yet u call me after that again to DISTURB me....i got so nice to disturb ma...and do i look like a shelter to u....u will only look me up when u r feeling down...and tat is when u do wrong things....but wat do i know...i know nth and i am nt a councellor....u need me when u r down but where r u when u hurt me....i am nt enought to shelter u....eventhoug nth went wrong now...but still i am trying ttrying to forget and look normal....really really...but sch is busy very busy so i dont have much time to think...so i guess tired is the price to pay ba...

12:30 AM

Saturday, January 02, 2010

Is a new year now....went to count down..hmmm actually nv really count down too...met boon they all at ysihun dam for bbq...nv eat much thou but the food is all at my house now....then went to watch avatar 3d the second time cos last sunday went to watch with rui jie...so long nv see him le...he didnt change much...but is so tired they most of us slp in the cinema...haha...after tat went home arund 6 plus and slpt until 10 plus when he call me to go out for breakfast and lunch....i was back to my normal self i think...yup i am....but somehow he became the one is have to be in control...every little action tat u wanted to do but didnt do it but i saw everything...every little action didnt escape from my eyes...i am a girl...girl are more sensitive...even u didnt do it but still the action is there....i know u r controlling....everything tat u r thinking through ur mind u ask for my view..even i donnoe anything abt tat u still ask for my views...but who am i...u can do it even without asking me...i can only give u ideas and some suggestions...doesnt this show tat u have feeling for me...but u are controlling,not admitting and not honest to urself...becos u wanted to do so many things at a time that u are scared u cant handle and no time to handle ur gf....i donnoe wat to say...but since u want it tat way then i will let it be tat way....i wont let u control too hard cos i will control myself too...tat will be fair i suppose....since i cant let u go when u call me and msg then it shall be tat way....

10:49 AM